Jillian Michaels hates me, a lot.

I am very tired of looking like I have an extra dounut tire around my waist. My self esteem has dropped to critical levels. I have never been self-praising, but I always felt comfortable and attractive. Now? Not so much. I don't kow how much I weigh, but I know I probably need to lose about 30 lbs and tone up the abs the K completely wrecked streched out. So I decided to do something about it. Now, I am the first to admit I NEVER exercise. I have never really been "in shape." So last night I decided to start the 30 Day Shred (30DS) last night. My plan is do it everyday. But last night kicked my ass bottom.I used 5 lb weights when I should have used 3 lbs. I thought "hey, I am doing level 1, I am starting easy." The 30DS is not easy even when you start easy. It hurts to pick up K this morning. My arms are so sore. But I think I am going to go with the 3 lb weights for a week, and then switch to the 5 lbers. I don't know, but I am getting excited. I am really tired of being about 3 sizes bigger than I am used to. Now, if I can make it through the workout without stoppping for more than one 5 second break.

Wish me luck. I am going to need it.